So why is it women feel the need to be excepted by those who treat them the worst? Or why do we believe in the lies of a person who could give a rats ass about us? Yes, I have been caught in a mans trap of lies. I'm not going to name any names...but I know some will figure it out.
I feel like the typical stupid woman, and I am far from that. But I guess right now I am. This person wonders why he is going through the wrath of a woman scorned....well take a good hard look at what you have done. People talk, no matter what, and things get said and sometimes those words are all too familiar, even though they were spoken to someone else. It's almost like making a tossed salad, you may add different ingredients, but it still comes out the same. I do believe I have stretched my neck out for a "friend" for the last time. Yes, I am feeling quite used right now. Used, abused, lied to, wadded up and tossed in the gutter...all to a degree. There are some exceptions, but there is no need for details here. I'm not going to let this situation get me down because I'm smarter than that. Loyal dogs will bite, and this ones lips are curled and teeth are showing. So my "friend", you have made your bed....now lay in it, and keep me out of it!!!
It's amazing how the last person you would use and treat like complete shit is the one who helps the most. Hopefully he will realize his safety net of friends has turned to a thin string.
I've learned my lesson...now I want him to stay away, there is no love, respect or appreciation here....no reason to stick around. I have what I need and who i want to be with, there is no reason to leave a person who loves me for someone who does not.
He tells me...."Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned." Well, when you create it...know that her wrath shall fall on you....deal with it.
Word of advise to some of you "boys"....you could not get away with lying to your mother, what makes you think you can lie to any other female? Just tell the truth, that why you have one less CYA situation to deal with.
That is all....thank you.

P.S. I'm not talking about the BF here....things are actually quite well with us.....thus far.

Ok so now that the BF has moved I'm feeling a little lonely. We have decided to try and work things out and with a little distance between the two of us we both agree it will help the relationship. So yes we are back together and trying to work things out. Every relationship will have it's problems, so instead of giving up we are going to try and work things out. I think it the best for both of us, besides I don't want to have to train another BF.....hehehe. Not only that we have gotten used to each other and I don't know that I will find someone who treats me as well as he does. And yes he does treat me pretty good for the most part. How many women do we all know that complain that their BF's, husband's or SO's don't cook, clean, do laundry or other crap for them? Not many. Such as life.

I'm applying for a job in Denver that I'm hoping will pan out, I'm kind of getting tired of going to school and I'm needing a change. I've had some life checks lately and I'm starting to get bored with what I see. It's good that we have choices and can make the decision to make changes in our lives if we feel like it. That's the great thing about having a brain and knowing how to use it.

Ok so the other half and I have officially broke up. The only bad thing is, he still lives with me.......but not for long. i don't think I want to date anyone for awhile. This was really tough on me, and some of my friends and family. But on to new horizons. I did find out that I am on the Dean's list at school....WOOHOO! I am smart girl. I am actually quite proud of myself. Any way, time to get ready for school.

Ok, so I now have 4.5 jobs and school full time. Workaholic you say.....mmmmm....maybe. But all I see is $$$$$$. Is it worth it.....I guess, so long as I have my weekends to myself, or sort of to myself. A good friend told me Saturday night "You need one job that pays you really well." I couldn't agree more, but then I don't know what I would do with myself and all that extra time. Is there a cure for that? Well I best get back to my school work before class starts.

ok so i'm trying to type and it's not working cause I'm freezing my ass off!!! This is the number one reason why I hate living in old houses...draftier than hell.

so lately I ahve been feeling like a charity case provider....I'm not naming any names but good grief almighty am I exhausted with how much work goes into a relationship!!! And there are times I feel like a dam soccer mom...."ok kids just give me a call to come pick you up and I will drop everything and to pick you up."

Ok so I'm sitting in class and I'm bored....this is not good....I like school.